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tiro's musings  Well, the WC ins. has approved my second surgery, coming up March 5th. I'm hopeful that they will not change their minds. I've got to get through the deposition with their attorneys, and then get through their independent medical exam. Don't look forward to either one. Current mood:  hopeful.
well, for those who are aware and wondering how my doctors appointment went..... The airlines took good care of me and the flight over and back wasn't too difficult. The hospital got my x-rays done right away and got me in to see the doc immediately, so I was able to turn right around after and fly home. No sense in staying since I could'nt get around on crutches well enough, comfortably enough to shop. :) Doc did some good things, and suggested some bad stuff. He said, as I knew he would, that we cannot think about taking out the rods until after March next year. He would prefer to wait longer. We'll see. The bad news there is that he has done 300 cases of hip surgeries, most probably the full hip replacements which he says are the easier surgeries; but he has never removed any of those rods. This is very bad news to me, and I do not want to be his first case. So, I'm planning on finding the best surgeon of this kind in Hawaii and get a referred to him/her for a second opinion. Doc had no explanation for my pain, or for the funny lumpy skin next to both incisions, which are painfully sensitive. He also said that some patients do end up with a limp, even with a slight "vault", which is what I'm doing. Likely some of that is due to leg being 3/8 inch shorter. This was not good news. But he also said that sometimes full healing can take up to 18 months. And he said that even if the rods were removed that is no guarantee that it will take away the pain. This could be just standard legal talk. He did send my info to the pain management division and they will be contacting me, and I'll have to fly back over to see them. He also took me off work entirely until a possible time of removal of rods..... 3-1-07. He said that WC will probably want to send me to another doc to challenge that. That might be where I can find the best surgeon and have him discuss it all with me. I wept in the hallway thinking about being stuck with a limp and pain, and how that would/could interfere with my life. But the fight is not over yet. so we will see..... Current mood:  sad.
Still cleaning up from earthquake. busy gluing the salvagable items. thankfully it is working. still finding stuff that slipped behind and in corners. Occasionally a small tremor shakes for just a few seconds. but that is more like normal, although a bit more frequent. Usually, the couple times a month quakes are nothing at all and hardly noticeable. Have to say that was one of the scariest things I've been through lately. And to think I had to hobble as fast as I could on my crutch. Geesh. I hobbed out to the yard and stood there saying WOW God over and over. LOL One must choose carefully who she allows herself to be offended by. And perhaps more important how she will deal with it.. Let an abuser know they offended you and they'll have to get angry and get even with you for showing them to have done something wrong. Depending on what type of abuser this could have lasting effects and could effect other relationships. Let a trusted friend know that something they said or did , didn't set right with you and they'll want to fix it. In most cases, it is likely better to either not allow yourself to be offended, and/or to ask questions. Maybe they didn't mean what you thought they meant. Maybe they misunderstood something you said. Maybe they were upset over something else not related to you at all. Current mood:  contemplative.
Life, real living is more than a nice home, lots of toys, a good income, a few kids and money for vacations. God created everyone uniquely different in looks, personality, characteristics. To be appreciated and loved for your uniquenesses is how life is supposed to be lived in community. Each giving to and receiving from each other. It is part of the creative community of being human. God, in wanting to guarantee this community of mutual admiration gives His children gifts to bless one another with. It really works. It’s a great system. But we have to receive from God and be willing to be the vessel for those gifts in order for them to turn into real life and the joys of Godly living. When we are doing because we are gifted by God we will be doing because we trust God and want to obey God and do God’s will, not because we should to be good Christians. Indeed there are things we should do to be a good Christian: holy living, close relationship with the Lord, loving our brethren and neighbors, acts of mercy, helping the helpless, etc. However, in the area of giftings, it’s not about looking good, it’s about being who God really called us to be. We cannot experience the joys that go along with the gifts if we are pretending for appearance sake or ritually doing duty works. Until we find, discover, realize our true gifts it is true that we do need to experiment. Just keep in mind that you are experimenting and don’t fall into the trap of doing things because you think others expect it of you. Use all opportunities to serve God through serving others, not by expectation or reward but by free will offering and yielding to God’s nudges. Part of the preparation of receptivity is to be holy as Christ is holy. The world longs for people about whom they can make an assumption of purity, integrity and honor of character. We live and work in a world turned topsy turvy built upon an assumption of self interest. This forces us to become wise in living in self defense never making an assumption of another’s purity, integrity, honor of character even though we wish we could. Those who live and promote purity, integrity and honor of character loving with Godly unconditional love easily become the hero’s of our world. Hero’s come in all sizes from rescuers of those in danger to those who know when to listen and when to advise and when to warn. Those are the people who the Holy Spirit is drawn to use as vessels for the spiritual giftings (charisma) of the Holy Spirit. And that leads to real life as God would have us live it. There are six areas in which Christians view gifts: motivational leanings, fruit of the Spirit, spiritual empowerments, spiritual ministries, Christian responsibilities, and God given skills. It is the general tendency of many churches to lump them all in one big box or category. But they don’t belong there. They are different. Ministry callings are different than spiritual empowerments as not everyone with an empowerment has a ministry in it. Being responsible to do our Christian duties as guided by God is not the same as a ministry, an empowerment or even a motivational leaning as we are being responsible to do Christian works that each one of us is supposed to be doing; i.e., not a gift. We are all also supposed to be walking in the fruit of the Spirit. And each individual is unique in personality and blessed by different skills, also considered gifts which may be enhanced by the Holy Spirit but can still operate without the help of the Spirit since they are individual gifts given to all, Christian or not. So my beef is that if the church general keeps mixing up human skills (that God gifts us with at birth) and Christian responsibilities with the empowerments of the Holy Spirit, the church will slowly lose touch with the Holy Spirit. And indeed, I see that happening. Rick Warren has written a best selling book encouraging people to draw near God. This has been sorely needed and long over due in Christiandom. His ingenius abilities to organize and socialize people into community is a powerful tool for evangelism. Christianity needs to utilize these tools for that purpose. As great as these tools are they are not an all in one system for all ministries in the church. Unfortunately, this is exactly what Warren is now promoting, skillfully organizing an entire church structure around his five fold groupings of worship, fellowship, discipleship, evangelism, ministry. Home groups led by lay people without giftings for leadership or teaching are under the umbrella of discipleship with the doctrinal teachings done by Saddleback videos. And this is a problem. Videos, no matter how informative cannot take the place of gifted called leaders and teachers. This is likely making Mr. Warren a multimillionaire as well as SaddleBack. What it is not doing is building up the church in learning how to study Scripture. Spoon fed mini portions of prepared breakfast cereal does not teach one how to cook for themselves. It leaves them dependent upon the feeder and the product. This is a grave problem. Some churches and skilled individuals need to step up to the plate and call the church at large back to diligent Berean Bible Study. Home groups are good but when it is being said that they can be led by anyone, then the true leaders and teachers are left with no one to lead and teach. These home groups take up precious time that could be used sending people to real Bible Studies where they would learn proper methods of researching and studying the Scriptures. What do you think? You ask: “Why should men give up what they see as the perks of being “the head”? Comments?” The greatest supposed benefit that men gain by claiming headship and authority over women is an unrivaled license to sin. And the ones they sin the most against are women. The temptations to be the arrogant rooster are just too great. The temptation to demean women’s thinking as different and inferior because she is restricted from anything resembling male headship and authority is just too easy and readily available. The temptation to chauvanistically bestow the best honors on men in everything one thinks is truly important seems just reasonable. The temptation to consider one’s own desires, dreams, goals, hopes and wishes first seems so reasonable when you are “the man”, the one who stands in front representing the family. The temptation to require those you have this supposed authority over to arrange themselves to fit into your desires, dreams, goals, hopes and wishes is only normal since that is what corporate leadership, and business ownership does with it’s workers. To call any small deference and considerations on your part toward those you have final say and authority over a sacrifice, which means you don’t expect to do that on a regular basis, is so convenient. And so on.... To give up easy sin is without doubt one of the toughest challenges that any Christian is called to do. Why do we make it harder for men to be holy like Christ by giving them false claims to sinful behavior? well, I made it through the noise and crackling. My cats have recooperated from sitting as close to me as they could and/or scrambling through my shoes in the closet trying to find the safest quietest darkest place they could. LOL I was up til 4am.... and had to work that day. I just don't know what is so exciting about the fire crackers. they just make a huge mess and deafening noice. Now I do like the ones that shoot up and make beautiful sparkles in the air. could watch those for a long time. but our neighbors hang out incredible long lines of firecrackers that must take 5 minutes to go off. uuuugggghh. I just checked out Wal-Mart's sales. Good stuff. Everything was fine til I saw another woman, Christian sister from my old church, cart by with the half price wreath I was looking for. will probably make more like them only better next year. teehe and now we have to get ready for the New Years parties. what do you all do for New Years? |
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